my so-called life...

That show you know when Claire Danes is going through the awkward phase of adolescence. It's a huge change you're going through, and your life is never as it was before. That's how I feel. Do you ever feel like transitioning to the next stage in your life can be so hard? This move is starting to make me aware of the big changes coming to my life. I know you're thinking what can possibly change that BIG by moving into a house from an apartment. I live downtown. It's fun. My friends that I hang out with most live downtown or extremely close in proximity to downtown. Now, I am moving about 40 minutes away in what most would consider the "burbs". No one is going to want to come to the burbs. There's not a nightlife, and well, you can't have a "good" time and drive all the way back downtown and vice versa for me unless you'd like a pretty mugshot. It's been kind of hard on me lately. LC and I are very serious like on the brink of *cough cough, ahem* engagement I'm thinking Christmas at the latest. And, I hope I just didn't jinx myself. My other friends are not. I will be closer to my bestest friend in the world, but she has a baby which I do not I am definitely not in that transition stage. . And my other closest friend lives in a suburb about 20 minutes away, but she's seeing my cute, rebound boy. Not to mention, she quit inviting me out ages ago. I guess, when "I" became a "we". She later mentioned that people get tired of being rejected. I'm not one of those once I get a boyfriend I fall off the face of the Earth kind of girls. I did that once, and I learned a very hard lesson. I just need a little notice. Give me a week or two's notice. I mean I do have someone else that takes up my time to consider. It's very important to me to maintain my friendships when being in a relationship. I guess she just assumed that I wouldn't want to go because I'm in a serious relationship. That's not the case, I just need some notice is all. And I miss her. I just keep telling myself that this house is a good investment; because if it weren't for the recession, we would not be able to afford this neighborhood. It's a house that we can grow into once we have kids versus having to sell due to it being too small. I know that's it's a good choice. I know it's a wise choice. I know that I will love it once I'm there and able to decorate and make it my own. I know this but still it's change. And change, well it's good. I'm growing up. I'm moving on to that next step. It's so weird when your life and your friends' lives don't change together. It's like I'm embarking on a new journey, and I feel alone. My only solace some times is my married best friend who's been there. I'm looking at home decoration sites and wedding mags don't roll your eyes. yes, I realize I'm not even engaged yet but, my friends, they aren't there yet. And it sucks. I wish they were going through this phase with me. Ah, but such is life....