Thursday, September 9, 2010
I was thinking today about how scared I was when I took this teaching job. Career changing in a completely different direction is like a leap of faith. You have no idea if you're going to end up landing on two feet, or if you will plummet to your own demise. It's scary the unknown. It's scary in a way that is indescribable.
My leap of faith has changed my life...for the better. Sure I'm feel like I'm burning the candle at both ends sometimes, I'm broke, I have daily freak outs, I worry about 130 little people other than myself daily, and I toss and turn some nights hoping that I am not doing them an injustice this year. Because, a first year teacher is basically playing a game of trial and error. However slight those might be, it still affects my students' learning and their future. But, it's the best decision I EVER MADE. I love, love, love, looooooooovvvvveeeeee my job. I wake up everyday and want to go to work. I even make it to work anywhere from 15-30 minutes early EVERY day. If you know me well, then, you know that I don't live on actual time, I live on Belle's time. I am notoriously unpunctual.
With that being said, I am actually kind of sad that I will not being going to work tomorrow. LC and I are flying to Ohio to attend his cousin's wedding. I did not get home til almost 6:30 tonight, because I had a mini freak out. I hear all the moms on twitter freaking out when they have to travel and leave their munchkins behind. They are fretting over making sure everything is in order. Well, I have 130 chill-ren. I was having a major freak out that my sub would not know everything she needed to know. She is probably going to think I am the most OCD person ever which is so far from the truth, but then again, in my professional life, I am somewhat OCD. Everything has to be done a certain way, put in a certain place, have things done my way, and in all reality, I wish that could filter into personal life. Alas, it does not. Ha!
Also, I'd like to say thank you to a special person who has helped me so much the past month. She is one of the biggest blessings the blog world has brought to me. She is my saving grace when I feel insanity creeping on sometimes. Thank you Preppy 101. Thank you for believing in me. Thank you for listening to my mini freak outs, and thank you for all the advice you give me. I cannot express how much I have enjoyed talking with you. You have made me a better teacher already:)
Hope you lovelies have a fabulous weekend!!!!