Monday, September 22, 2008

My First Blog

So, this is my first blog. I'm just going to start with today. No background, no ridiculously long paragraph with my loves, hates, likes, and dislikes. Just today starting fresh.
My best friend from undergrad just got married this past weekend. Kinda reminded me that out of our group, I am the last one left...Also, reminded me that I am getting kinda old too. She chose red, black, and white as her colors. I personally wouldn't have chosen red in September due to my fixation that red is a winter color nonetheless the reception looked like a Christmas in September. It was a lot of fun:) Also, reminded me that I am the last one to also not have children. The bride had a baby 2 months before the wedding. Technically, proposal came first, and baby was an added surprise. Anyways, I've been seeing Law Clerk for about a month now. I'm normally a non-committal person due to previous relationships in the past and not wanting to be hurt again. I know, I know everyone's been hurt blah blah. Just I'm scared okay. Law Clerk was a surprise. Have known him for awhile now, but it kind of snuck up on me. We have always picked on each other since we've met. Guess you can describe us as being 3rd grade. You know how when you were little and liked someone, you would just be mean or punch them. Yeah that was us. He's the most amazing man I've ever met. He is so kind and awesome. Just writing about him brings a smile to my face. I appreciate every second we spend together. I'm very picky, and normally, I never like anyone. Believe me, I know I'm no Gisele or Heidi Klum, but I'm an intelligent, attractive woman, and have felt that I deserve the same. However, I am smitten. Completely and utterly smitten with LC. I love the way his hair smells, the feeling when his long eyelashes tickle my skin, how my hand fits perfectly in his, his hands on the small of my back as I enter a room, the way he picks me up like a baby when I'm tired, and I could go on and on. I hope that he likes me as much as I like him. I have been afraid that what happens if he doesn't end up liking me that much, or at all, or what if he just wakes up one day and decides he just doesn't feel the same. It's scary, but I have chosen for once to finally let my fears subside and run with it. To me, it's worth risking and for me that's saying a lot.....................

No comments:


Blog Widget by LinkWithin