TTC for another month

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You know trying to conceive can be a difficult time. It's exhausting and stressful and tiresome and sometimes fun. I know this for even women whose lady parts are perfectly fine. So, throw in some jacked up lady bits to the scenario, and magnify those above issues x1000 sans the fun part because it's all about test, medicine, timing, etc.

I took my first round of clomid while still on metformin  this month. A few lovely ladies on twitter let me know to take the clomid at night. Oh, and I'm so glad I listened to them. I'm always cold. I wear a sweatshirt and jeans to the movies in August here in the South. I use a down comforter all year long. no joke. When I was taking this medicine, I would wake up in the middle of the night, and I was SO hot. Really hot. During the day, I felt okay. But I was still warmer than normal. I went to the movies with my MIL to see Frances Ha (post coming on that soon!) and I didn't even bother to put on the cardigan I'd brought to cover up my arms. That's a first for me people! It made me sweat in my sleep. Ick!

Now, I'm done with the clomid. I finished it about a week ago. Now, I'm just super thirsty, and I'm having some pelvic discomfort. The discomfort is really low, so the nurse isn't so sure it would be an ovarian cyst. Mostly because the way I describe it is that it's just discomfort. It's not even hurting to where I'd take advil. It kind of feels like a pulled muscle/that feeling when you've held your pee for too long. Yesterday, it kind of bothered me all day. Today, it is WAY better. She spoke with the doctor and said that this is due to the clomid. I could experience this and bloating til either General Krottendorfer aka Aunt Flow showed up or until I find out I'm pregnant.

I guess I am writing this because hopefully one day we will have a baby, and I'll look back on these posts and know what I've subjected my body to these past 6 months and maybe more will have been worth it. I'm just trying to keep busy and not think about things too much. My family tree is coming along, and I think I have quite the knack for genealogy. Or maybe, I have just enthralled myself into doing so to keep my thoughts from getting the best of me. I am trying to stay positive while being realistic. I do not want to get my hopes up in the sense only to be served a dish of cold disappointment. So, for now, emotionally, that is where I'm at.

I had a positive on my OPK on Tuesday. I will be going in for blood work on Monday to see if I ovulated and going to the obgyn on Tuesday to discuss the results. I really do hope I ovulated. If you are the type that prays, please add me to your list. Or whatever, deity you believe in, add me to your list. Even if I'm not pregnant this cycle, at least ovulation would give me hope in such a dark place. At least I would know there's a chance...a possibility.