Monday, October 19, 2009
Today, I had planned a post about my fun travels over the weekend. But instead, the happy post I had intended to write is now fallen to the wayside. One of my IRL friends stumbled upon my blog by accident a long time ago, and a few others know about it. Evidently, while I was gone, they took offense to my post titled "My So-Called Life". I try to be careful about my wording when referring to my friends for fear that things may get taken out of context which is what has happened over the weekend. My post was not intended to portray a friend who thought she was better than her friends, or a friend who thought just because she is getting really serious with her boyfriend finds that her "un-married" friends aren't mature enough for her. The post was meant to convey that I was scared about leaving my comfortable life downtown with all my friends who live nearby. It was about wishing that my friends were going through the same exact thing I was. I wish they were moving to the suburbs too. I am afraid I will never see them. I am afraid if I have cookouts or parties at my house, that they will not come. That they will have East Parkway syndrome even with me. It was about being scared to move onto the next step. Change isn't easy. It isn't going to be easy moving away from all that I know and love and hold dear to my heart. That's what my post was about. Maybe, I should have said those exact words, but I did not. And my other IRL friend said she quit reading my blog because I insulted her. I went back through my ENTIRE blog and found very few times I mentioned her, but to me, it was not insulting. This has really hurt my feelings. I am well aware that some of my friends read my blog, and I would never say anything deliberately mean about them. I do not air my dirty laundry over the internet. So for future reference, IRL friends, if you read something you take as not okay, please talk to me about it before making assumptions. I will almost guarantee that is not the way it was intended to be. I love my friends and would never do anything intentionally to hurt them. Today is the day we close on the house. Instead of being a happy day and a day of joy, it is a day that I am sad.