So, LC wants to have the Ex-Boyfriend talk. This was his message to me this morning:
"I am too ashamed to even tell you about what I have been pining over the past several weeks. I want to talk about your prior relationships, particularly this ____ fellow, tonight. this is not a bad talk. I just want to know more about you because I love you. I don't want you to be worried and I am sorry I am not strong enough to start this conversation in person. I can't remember the number of times I would not bring this up if I didn't care so much about you. My hands are shaking and I am more nervous than I have been for a long time because I love you and you mean the world to me. I know I have told you this before, but I hope you believe me, I love you, have a good day. I look forward to seeing you every moment of every day."
I've yet to understand why men and women do this to themselves. Why they just have to know. He's an attorney; so, I guess attention to detail is his forte. Ha! I am IN love with him, and his past is not relevant to me. The only thing that matters is A)our relationship B) how he treats me and Puggy C) that he's not a murderer, rapist, thief, etc. He has a clean record, and that's all I need to know. How do you tell someone hey you know what I dated all the wrong guys, I should have read the book "He's just Not that Into You", I have no idea why I stayed with my alcoholic ex TWOS [that's a whole other post in and of itself I'll have to do one day], or all of these other things. I forget he's not like me. He's practical, shy, scared of being hurt to the point he closes himself off, a worrier, needs to know all the facts, analyst, etc. I on the other hand, will quote a line from Pretty Woman. "I would say I'm a kinda fly by the seat of my pants gal". I'm impulsive, a shopaholic, not practical, not a worrier, LC describes me as carefree, fickle, love freely, social, learned being scared gets you nowhere in love, etc. I'm a true Pisces through and through. Occasionally, my ex and I will message each other. It's not like that. It's just my ex will message if he's ever in town or for example, last week I messaged him on his birthday. That's it. There's no torrid, tumultous affair going on over here. I love LC. I know it's only been 6mos now, but geez, marry me already. I've found the love of my life and think every second about what spending my life with him will be like and am ready for it to HURRY UP and happen. If I was younger, I wouldn't care so much but hey when you start getting in your late twenties well time starts ticking. *gasp* Yes, I admitted I'm in my late twenties. Gaw, what's the world coming to when a girl admits that. Hey, but, I'm not thirty yet=) When I look at him, I see the father of my children, I see the person who I first run to when I'm sad/happy/excited/glad, who I want to spend all my life with, who I want to share a future with. I've never seen that with anyone else nor felt it before. Sorry, I just had to get that out.
Thanks about the Awards TPP and Natalie. I promise to blog about them next!