"I am too ashamed to even tell you about what I have been pining over the past several weeks. I want to talk about your prior relationships, particularly this ____ fellow, tonight. this is not a bad talk. I just want to know more about you because I love you. I don't want you to be worried and I am sorry I am not strong enough to start this conversation in person. I can't remember the number of times I would not bring this up if I didn't care so much about you. My hands are shaking and I am more nervous than I have been for a long time because I love you and you mean the world to me. I know I have told you this before, but I hope you believe me, I love you, have a good day. I look forward to seeing you every moment of every day."
I've yet to understand why men and women do this to themselves. Why they just have to know. He's an attorney; so, I guess attention to detail is his forte. Ha! I am IN love with him, and his past is not relevant to me. The only thing that matters is A)our relationship B) how he treats me and Puggy C) that he's not a murderer, rapist, thief, etc. He has a clean record, and that's all I need to know. How do you tell someone hey you know what I dated all the wrong guys, I should have read the book "He's just Not that Into You", I have no idea why I stayed with my alcoholic ex TWOS [that's a whole other post in and of itself I'll have to do one day], or all of these other things. I forget he's not like me. He's practical, shy, scared of being hurt to the point he closes himself off, a worrier, needs to know all the facts, analyst, etc. I on the other hand, will quote a line from Pretty Woman. "I would say I'm a kinda fly by the seat of my pants gal". I'm impulsive, a shopaholic, not practical, not a worrier, LC describes me as carefree, fickle, love freely, social, learned being scared gets you nowhere in love, etc. I'm a true Pisces through and through. Occasionally, my ex and I will message each other. It's not like that. It's just my ex will message if he's ever in town or for example, last week I messaged him on his birthday. That's it. There's no torrid, tumultous affair going on over here. I love LC. I know it's only been 6mos now, but geez, marry me already. I've found the love of my life and think every second about what spending my life with him will be like and am ready for it to HURRY UP and happen. If I was younger, I wouldn't care so much but hey when you start getting in your late twenties well time starts ticking. *gasp* Yes, I admitted I'm in my late twenties. Gaw, what's the world coming to when a girl admits that. Hey, but, I'm not thirty yet=) When I look at him, I see the father of my children, I see the person who I first run to when I'm sad/happy/excited/glad, who I want to spend all my life with, who I want to share a future with. I've never seen that with anyone else nor felt it before. Sorry, I just had to get that out.
Thanks about the Awards TPP and Natalie. I promise to blog about them next!
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Take your time hon! I have to blog about awards as soon I receive them or else I completely forget. I think I have at least 3 tags that I haven't done & probably won't b/c they weren't done immediately.
Plus, I end up just tagging the same people over & over. What fun is that?
Now.. on to your post. My hubby is not one for details. He didn't care about any past relationships. He didn't even want to have the "What's your number" talk. I, on the other hand, wanted details.
Maybe LC just wants to know all of this stuff about you so he knows what mistakes NOT To make. He wants to know what the other guys did that caused you to leave & he doesn't ever want that to happen.
AND just my 2 cents.. 6 months can be an eternity. When you've met the one, you know... immediately. I happened to be in Newby's & knew right then I would marry this guy. It was in June & I had a ring by Christmas. It's been almost 5 years & I'm happier than ever.
Relationships and love are hard and difficult. He may want to ask questions but might not be ready to hear the answers. It'll be alright.
I just wanted to let you know that i was thinking about you! I hope the talk goes well! My hubby never cared about past relationships, but I always did! I am just so curious. Maybe LC is just curious like I am. I didn't let past relationships get in the way of my relationship with my husband. It was just comforting for me to know about them.
Oh my, you two are SO similar to me & my Conor. He is totally logical, practical...so on. I, also a Pisces, am NOT. Ha! As for the "talk." We never did that, I think it's def. dependent on the person. I don't think it's a bad or good thing per se, just different for everyone! Good luck with it & just make it a very cleaned up, edited version of everything!!
I will be thinking about you and sending you good energy for your little talk. I think it is a good sign that he is getting so close to you that he cares about your past. A ring might be in your future sooner rather than later! That's what I am hoping at least!
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